Relying on God and Not myself.
I find it so interesting how God places circumstances in our lives to guide us when we need it the most. As those of you that know me know I just got married about a week and a half ago. I had been asked a few weeks before if I would speak at my friend Pastor Sidney Fields Student Ministry’s “Teen Week” which is the week after my honeymoon. After talking to the most beautiful woman in the world, who is now my wife, about this, and spending some time in prayer about it, we decided that it is something God is leading me to do and were very excited about it. Well the time has come and I have been feeling as if this is not the greatest idea. We both want to go home and get stuff settled in but I have made this commitment and am sticking to it.
As usual I find myself doubting if this is really what the Lord is wanting me to do right now and have been uncomfortable, and feeling a bit insecure about my messages for this week, when I began catching up on reading some of the blogs that I missed while in the Dominican Republic. As I said before it is so amazing how God almost manipulates (in a good way) the circumstances in our lives. One of the posts that I was catching up on was Pastor Steven Furtick’s blog and interestingly enough the one that hit me the most was a guest he had blogging on his page Ryan Hollingsworth who was making an analogy of his high school running career and comparing it to his life now, talking about how we need to keep our eyes on the goal and not critiquing every decision we make causing us to doubt ourselves.
I need to keep myself focused on the reason that I am here speaking to these teens and that is because of my passion for teaching God’s Word. I need to stop criticizing myself and trust that God has brought me here for a reason. I need to speak from my heart and not just from some notes that I have put together. I need to allow God to speak through me and trust that what he has led me to prepare is what these teens need to hear. I need to follow Proverbs 3:5-6 and trust in the Lord with all my heart, leaning not on my own understanding but acknowledging Him in all my ways, allowing him to direct my paths.
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